a short update on our minimising efforts
The knot we are trying to untangle feels like it might be choking us. But we are getting through it. The relief will be sweet (that’s the promise, anyway).
This week I worked on cleaning my studio. It ended up being more of an organising mission than a getting-rid-of one (although there were quite a few boxes and bags of junk that left the space). This was a tough one to get started and is even tougher to continue and progress with. Yet, it is happening, slowly.
This is starting to feel like a big struggle against my personality. Hopefully this is not going to leave me feeling empty and as though I have rationalised meaningful things out of my life. Hopefully I won’t miss the memory triggers like the smell of some of the items that evoke strong memories and emotions. Hopefully this will help get my family out of our debt and won’t be a very high price for no reward.
The perfectionist in me wants to get all this ‘right’ and seems a bit disappointed at the slow progress. The sentimentalist and meaning maker is finding it hard not to just bury herself in it all and hide. Then there is a very strong need for freedom that keeps pushing and searching for an escape.
I think I should leave it there. I need to reflect on all of this. This experiment is a tough one. But that might be a very good thing.
So let’s keep going and see where it leads.